Tuesday 24 May 2011

31 Tales of a Real Life Romance - Chapter 20

I decided that it was time to come clean to Hands.

In actual fact there was no right time to do it, but I knew the longer I left it, the worse it would be when I did. He deserved to know the truth.

Plus, it wasn't fair that other people knew and he didn't. I probably should have told him straight away, but as you know I really liked him and didn't want to risk losing him.

I tried to convince myself that perhaps he'd be ok about it? After all my friends were really supportive when I told them. I'd also told other guys and they'd reacted better than I'd expected.

I thought about it long and hard. I discussed it at length with various people who had been through the same dilemma.

The advice I received was mixed. Some said it wasn't his business. Others said honesty was the best policy. Some pointed out that he wasn't getting to know the real me, while others said it was only a small part of who I am anyway.

I decided that I couldn't lie anymore. If this relationship was going to go anywhere, I had to open up. I was going to have to reveal my dirty secret.

I had to tell Hands that I'm a blogger.

It turned out that making the decision to reveal all wasn't the most difficult part, finding the opportunity to do so was. Date 4 had been so great that we were keen to get together as soon as possible. In Normal Land that would be easy. You'd discuss when you were both free and arrange the next date accordingly. In Weird World where I live, it was a bit more difficult. I didn't know when I was available, because I didn't know when and where my next job would be taking place. It is part of what I love about being a freelancer in TV but it doesn't half make it challenging to plan anything and can cause havoc with my social life.

I just trusted that what would be, would be. And what appeared to happen was that Cupid noticed that I might go away again and was pretty pissed off that all the hard work he'd put in to introducing Hands and I may be in vain. He called up The Universe and had a word about arranging me to stay in the UK. The Universe agreed to help and said that I'd done enough gadding about for a while anyway and it was time for me to concentrate on my love, rather than work, life.

At least that is what I think happened and explains why I got a phone call out of the blue from ITV saying they were crewing up for a TV programme, that I'd been recommended and could I start the following week? They said I'd have to stay on location as filming would take place a couple of hours away from Manchester, but I could home every weekend.

I was over the moon!

I excitedly phoned Hands and we quickly arranged Date 5 for Saturday night. He then asked me what the job was. I explained that it was a documentary about a military driving school...

'Wait, you are filming on an army base?'


'And you are going to be staying at the army base?'

'Yeah....in the Officer's Mess...'

'You are going to be surrounded by men for the next two months?'

'Er yeah I suppose I am.'

'I'm happy for you, but if we make it through this it'll be a miracle.'

Oh. Not quite the reaction I was hoping for. I decided not to mention the blogging for the time being. Keeping schtum a little longer wouldn't hurt would it?


Lifebeginsat30ty said...

Oh a little testosterone competition might make him appreciate you all the more ;) And I vote for way past date 4 for the blog reveal. Although now I'm secretly hoping that he has a dating blog of his own, mwahaha.

Glen said...

Everything will be fine as long as you never ever tell him what really happened (and the antibiotics work fast).

jo said...

will you be surrounded by hot bodied men? :P

Betty B said...

Ahh man, I didn’t know we had to disclose this type of information with the victims?! You have to love the hint of jealousy there- always good to keep them on thir toes!
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Seine said...

Ha! Good sense of humor, that Hands!

Kev D. said...

Come on HANDS, being insecure is SOOOOooooo unattractive.

Happy Frog and I said...

Either he was joking or he was serious and telling you how he felt rather then keeping things to himself. Either way he sounds like a keeper to me :-)

Anonymous said...

Come on, don't be a wimp, own up to the blog pronto, the longer you keep it quiet worse it seems, if you want this to last he has to read what you've written about him... ASAP !!!


shmeepea said...

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Lola X said...

LOL! Good one!

Lola x

AdamAnt said...

If you're meant to be, then he'll have to learn to live with your lifestyle and love it, sounds like this'll test that...

A Beer for the Shower said...

For a moment I was afraid your secret was syphilis. But, I'm glad you're just a blogger. Cheers!

Anonymous said...

Are you deliberately leaving ages to build the suspense??

Anonymous said...

Anonymous, my thoughts excatly... only nicer, please please pretty please, can we have some news?

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